Changes!

Change. It’s inevitable. We all go through some type of change at one point or another. This may be school, new home, job, new partner or just a simple change of season (ironically most of my changes are coming up with the autumn season, which just happens to be my favorite!)

Many changes are coming in my life! Part of me is super excited and another part of me is terrified. Changes can be both good and bad. It’s how you deal with the changes that counts. There are a few changes in my life that currently, I’m not sure how I am going to deal with them. Most of them are good changes, but they are big changes. I’m having to let go of some things and people. Some of the people I’m letting go, I’m letting go in a sense that I have to let them grow up and figure things out on their own. Even though I don’t have children of my own yet, I’ve always played a very active role in my younger siblings lives. As the older of my siblings is reaching adulthood this month, I’m just not even sure how to deal with it! I’m very proud of her and yet I’m scared because she is starting off on a new adventure and the next stage in her life. While I just want to control everything she does and keep her as safe as I can…I know that isn’t the best thing I can do for her. I have made myself available for her to contact me in about 5 different ways, so she knows she can always talk to me! Other than that, I just have to give her advice If/When she asks for it…and be there for her if she falls. I know what a wonderful person she is, so I suppose the best thing I can do for her is to truly believe in her and let her know that I do!

As all these changes are happening to me (I’m not going to mention all of them,) and I am also close to entering a new transition in my own life. I find it a bit of a challenge to figure out where I want to go from here. While TRYING not to compare myself to my previous school mates, I do notice that a lot of them are finishing up college, starting jobs, and even starting families. I am not where I thought I would be at this point, and I’ve come to accept it. I’m quite fine with it for the most part. While I did attend school, I’ve had to put everything on hold for a while due to some chronic health issues that have been getting worse. I’m seeing new doctors, trying new things, and right now I have some pretty good hope for the new techniques I’m learning to help manage it. Still, I have to wonder to myself, what can I do right now? What can I contribute to my family and my boyfriend? I can barely take care of myself most days. I suppose I was being too hard on myself and not looking at things from the right perspective. Instead of what can I do…I’m going to start asking myself, What do I WANT to do? While I currently don’t know the answer to this question, I do have some ways I’m going to try to figure it out.

One of the biggest things that happened to me when I started this blog was my “Awakening”. Through my writing, I discovered who I am and what I believe in. It really did help. We are always changing though! Even in small ways, and when we are stuck, our soul yearns for some new development! So I’m excited and hopeful that through writing again, I’m going to rediscover myself and hopefully figure out what I want to do.

What are some of your goals right now? How do you overcome your own changes? Please let me know your thoughts.

Thank you for taking the time to read this!

Love Always,

Aurora

Happy New Year!!

Sorry I haven’t been on for a while. I’ve been busy and trying to get some health stuff settled. Getting some new meds today so hopefully they help!

I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday season no matter what you celebrate. It’s always a good time to be with the people you care about. 🙂

I really hope to write more this year. My creative juices want to be used! But I’m still stuck. xD Haha.

I will figure something out.

If anyone has a topic they want me to talk about or express my opinion on, please email me or comment below. 😀

Let’s start this new year off trying to be a healthier and better versions of ourselves! That’s my goal anyway :p

Hope to write more soon!

~Aurora

A Choice

Today I am making a choice.

When I make this choice, it may take some time,

but me emotions will eventually follow.

I want to be a happier, brighter and stronger me.

I have a special light and I need to share it with the world.

I want a change and that change is going to start with me.

Still taking things one day at a time,

but I’m trusting that I will be given everything I need

and nothing more than I can handle.

So I encourage all of you to make a choice as well.

Allow yourself to bring you happiness,

not someone else.

“This too shall pass.”

Life throws many things at us, as I am quickly learning. Sometimes we struggle and want to give up because we feel that we can’t do it anymore. Just take a rest and look back at all you’ve been through, good and bad. It passed didn’t it? You made it through it. I know that I wouldn’t be as grateful for my joys if I hadn’t had to endure my share of pain. Sometimes we feel lost! Well maybe you are thinking too far in the future. Yea, planning is good…but no matter how much you plan, things are NEVER going to be exactly as you thought. Maybe it’s time to take things a little slower. Maybe a week at a time, or a day at a time, or even moment by moment if that’s what you need to do. If you truly seek, you will find the answers you want to know. Often we already know the answers…we just don’t like it. I know that everyone goes through rough times in there life, and some people feel like they never get a break…but you do. I promise you that things are constantly changing. If you don’t like where you are, then it’s up to you to do something about it. Be the change you want to see. Just remember that no matter what you are going through, “This too shall pass.”