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The Small Things

12 Feb

So here’s the thing. Everyone in your life is going to let you down in some way at one point or another, more than likely once. Now most of them won’t even do this intentionally. Obviously the people close to you don’t want to hurt you. Let’s just face it though, it’s going to happen.

Most of us have been told this on more than occasion. So you think you’d be use to you when it happens? Or at least expect it from certain people. Even expecting it doesn’t prepare your for the sting when it does happen. Especially when you know it’s not intentional and you really don’t know how or don’t want to tell them how it made you feel.

I’m really really bad about this. I don’t like to hurt people’s feelings, so usually if my feelings are really really hurt, I don’t let that person know. I know they would most likely feel bad for making me feel that way or even worse, not understand why I feel that way and get upset at me for it.

I had a small disappointment today, one that I expected, but it still hurt me and upset me when it happened. The biggest annoyance to me, is that it really was something small. Then I thought about it and it lead to a spiral of me thinking about other people in my life who have let me down and how I’ve always been told that this is just going to happen.

Now I feel bad for feeling this way and I’m too scared to tell anyone that I feel this way…and it’s all the little things lately that are weighing me don’t. I’m not sure why. It’s not like my life sucks or anything. I’m pretty happy right now and have a lot to look forward to…but I feel guilty for feeling the way I do now.

I know this feeling will pass, maybe even within the hour. It will most likely be something small :p since though small things can weigh me down, it’s usually the smallest things that mean the most to me and make me the happiest.

Sorry for spilling my guts to you guys right now. I’m just working through some stuff.

How do you guys get through the small things that aren’t significant and weren’t intentional?

Thanks for listening to me tonight. Hopefully someone can feel a little better reading this and knowing they aren’t alone. It really does get better!

Hopefully I’ll have something more interesting to post next time. :p Hopefully everyone is well.

Good night, good morning, happy birthday, or whatever else it may be when you are reading this.

Love Always,

Aurora

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Happy Saturday!

18 Oct

Happy Saturday lovely readers! Today I want to encourage everyone to read something, though honestly, I’m sure most of you do and you’re not the ones I really wish would read something. Haha.

But just find something nice to stimulate your mind today. Fiction or non fiction. Happy or sad. Just something to enjoy but also get you thinking. Sadly, especially where I come from, a lot of people don’t use their brains anymore. I’m frustrated with how many people I see that just blindly follow things and never question anything. It’s almost sad, but when it starts effecting gov laws and every day life, it gets a bit frustrating.

I was always taught, from a very young age, to question everything! It’s ok. It’s healthy and normal to question things. It’s supposed to help you learn more about yourself and what you understand, what you believe.

You know, thinking about it, I believe that because we live in such a fast paced society, that probably has a lot to do with the issues that I’m frustrated with. People don’t stop and take the time too read because it’s too long. People aren’t having good communications with friends and family because they are always doing something else on their phone or computer whenever they are talking. I know not everyone is like that…but I see so many people do this and it really makes me sad.

We are taking for granted some of the most important parts of human life! Remember to take time to do something for yourself, to educate yourself a little more, to make yourself happy, to make someone else happy, to cherish those around you that you love! You never know when it’s their last day or yours.

Sorry this post was all over the place. I just have a lot on my mind. :p Obviously.

I think I’m going to find something good to read and relax for now. Have a wonderful weekend everyone! Please take care!

Best Wishes,

~Aurora

Trust

9 Apr

Trust nobody. Trust nobody. Trust nobody. 

I’ve been telling myself this for years.

The voice whispers in my ear. “They’ll only hurt you.”

Trust nobody. “You’ll break again.”

Trust nobody. “They don’t mean what they say.”

Trust nobody. “They don’t really like you.”

Trust nobody. “Family? They have to “like” you”.”

Trust nobody. “They all speak the same lies. They never follow through.”

Hold your head up. Smile. Tell them you trust them.

Inside it just eats me alive and grows like a monster until I feel like I’m being swallowed whole.

Tearing myself apart.

Pushing myself away from people that really care about me.

Trust nobody. 

But I want to trust again.

Trust nobody.

I don’t know how to break the cycle I’m in.

Trust nobody. 

Something’s got to change.

Trust nobody. Trust nobody.

When does it end? I have to take the first step. 

But still the monster whispers, “Trust nobody.”

 

 

Pushing Through

11 Aug

Many times in life we are faced with lots of difficult tasks and decisions. It feels like the world is against us. Sometimes you just want to give up and lie down. I’ve learned a lot this week about this. I have realized that sometimes you just need to keeping pushing through, push just a little more to get what you want. Not all things are easy to come by. The best things in life are meant to be earned. It’s more rewarding that way and you certainly appreciate it more. Yes, I know, when it rains it pours. That’s why you have to love yourself first. Then build yourself a positive community of friends and family or whoever, that will support you and help you when you need it. Something else useful for you during these times…is simply KNOWING YOUR RESOURCES. There are so many people out there…and their jobs are to help. Ask questions. Someone should at least be able to direct you in the right direction. More often than not you’re going to have to speak to multiple people, several times, before you get what you need accomplished. If you get overwhelmed (which believe me…I’ve been there too) then take a step back for a moment and relax. You can only push things so far and things can only move so fast. Go to your happy place, talk to someone who will listen. Distract yourself. WANTING to feel better also helps. Sometimes when we get stuck in that rut…I’ll be the first to admit to feeling sorry for myself. Sometimes you just wanna stay that way. It’s easy to throw a pity party. You’re not getting anything accomplished doing that though. Just keeping pushing through. Things will get better…and if you don’t get what you want…then something better is most likely on the way for you. Just wait your turn. 🙂

~Love Aurora

I love you

25 Jun

I love you.

I love the things you do.

I love the time we spend together.

I can be with you through any weather.

I love your laugh.

You really are my other half.

I love our long talks at night.

I love the little things you do to make my day right.

Your arms always make me feel safe and sound

and I really do hope you will always be around.

The future is bright for us just you wait and see.

I love you baby, and that’s the way it should be.

Just some things I am thankful for.

18 Jun

First of all I am thankful for my family. I love my sister to pieces and she is the only blood sister I have. I would do anything for her, as some of you may have read. I would be lost without her because she helps me through my hard times. I am very thankful for my parents. They have done what they could to steer me in the right direction and support what I do. I think they have been pretty successful this far. I love them both so much and try to enjoy the time that I have left with them. I am also thankful for some of the greatest friends I could ever ask for. I don’t always think I deserve them, but I am very blessed that they stick around. I want to thank my readers so much for the time you spend on my blog, for the lovely comments, and friendly advice. It is so much appreciated. Lastly but certainly not the least, I am thankful for the one above who cherishes me and loves me know matter what. He has great plans for me and I hope I get to see some of those soon.