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Changes!

24 Aug

Change. It’s inevitable. We all go through some type of change at one point or another. This may be school, new home, job, new partner or just a simple change of season (ironically most of my changes are coming up with the autumn season, which just happens to be my favorite!)

Many changes are coming in my life! Part of me is super excited and another part of me is terrified. Changes can be both good and bad. It’s how you deal with the changes that counts. There are a few changes in my life that currently, I’m not sure how I am going to deal with them. Most of them are good changes, but they are big changes. I’m having to let go of some things and people. Some of the people I’m letting go, I’m letting go in a sense that I have to let them grow up and figure things out on their own. Even though I don’t have children of my own yet, I’ve always played a very active role in my younger siblings lives. As the older of my siblings is reaching adulthood this month, I’m just not even sure how to deal with it! I’m very proud of her and yet I’m scared because she is starting off on a new adventure and the next stage in her life. While I just want to control everything she does and keep her as safe as I can…I know that isn’t the best thing I can do for her. I have made myself available for her to contact me in about 5 different ways, so she knows she can always talk to me! Other than that, I just have to give her advice If/When she asks for it…and be there for her if she falls. I know what a wonderful person she is, so I suppose the best thing I can do for her is to truly believe in her and let her know that I do!

As all these changes are happening to me (I’m not going to mention all of them,) and I am also close to entering a new transition in my own life. I find it a bit of a challenge to figure out where I want to go from here. While TRYING not to compare myself to my previous school mates, I do notice that a lot of them are finishing up college, starting jobs, and even starting families. I am not where I thought I would be at this point, and I’ve come to accept it. I’m quite fine with it for the most part. While I did attend school, I’ve had to put everything on hold for a while due to some chronic health issues that have been getting worse. I’m seeing new doctors, trying new things, and right now I have some pretty good hope for the new techniques I’m learning to help manage it. Still, I have to wonder to myself, what can I do right now? What can I contribute to my family and my boyfriend? I can barely take care of myself most days. I suppose I was being too hard on myself and not looking at things from the right perspective. Instead of what can I do…I’m going to start asking myself, What do I WANT to do? While I currently don’t know the answer to this question, I do have some ways I’m going to try to figure it out.

One of the biggest things that happened to me when I started this blog was my “Awakening”. Through my writing, I discovered who I am and what I believe in. It really did help. We are always changing though! Even in small ways, and when we are stuck, our soul yearns for some new development! So I’m excited and hopeful that through writing again, I’m going to rediscover myself and hopefully figure out what I want to do.

What are some of your goals right now? How do you overcome your own changes? Please let me know your thoughts.

Thank you for taking the time to read this!

Love Always,

Aurora

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The Chance I Took

28 Apr

Dinner lit by candle light

I think We finally got this right

Holding tight to what I know

Always afraid of letting go

Meeting you I took a chance

Your look on life “I hope you dance.”

Opening my eyes I find new things to see

Maybe this isn’t about only me

A greater purpose I do not yet know

But maybe together we’ll discover and show

It Starts With A Smile

15 Mar

A smile on your face can lead to new doors

A new way of thinking can get you much more

Open your heart and you will see

Many sights you never thought could be

Find the time to share some love

Share wishes and hopes and things from above

Remember these things when you are quite site

Because doing and feeling can make you quite glad.

Through the Darkness

1 Mar

Though I am surrounded by darkness, I know the light will come again

Slowly trudging forward in the dark I must stand

Stronger than I’ve ever been before

Holding my ground so I don’t fall to the floor

On my knees I feel so weak

But on my feet I’m at a peak

Reaching out for something to hold

I am learning on my own to be bold.

 

 

New Reflection: Time to Shine

28 Feb

(Prequel Is:  But You’ll Shine Again)

A young woman walked along the edge of the creek that had become her favorite place to just enjoy nature and get away from the fast paced life for a while. She giggled like a young girl as she dipped a toe in the cool water to test it out. She looked down in the water and smiled at her reflection, clearly remembering the last harsh meeting she had with her own reflection just a few years before. She touched her own cheek softly as she reminisced on the period that she hated her own reflection. How could she ever have had such self loathing? It had taken time, but she had finally realized her own value and worth as a human being and even more as a woman. As if reading her mind there was a flutter in her stomach. The look on her face changed to surprise and then complete awe as she gently caressed her belly that was now sprouting a small bump from the child that she carried. Yes, things were much better now. She had saved herself. Picked up her own pieces and moved forward with her life. The young woman smiled at her belly and looked up as she noticed the sky beginning to form a beautiful and unique painting as the world prepared for night time. She slipped her sandals back on and headed for home. Home. The word that use to sound so foreign. She laughed and smiled knowing she had found her place in the world.

But You’ll Shine Again…

27 Feb

Do you see me?

I sure see you.

That “smile” on your face.

“Everything is fine,” you say.

I stare blankly at the person I don’t even recognize anymore.

Eyes once shining with innocence…

Now filled with the sheer cruelty of the world.

I force a small smile though I am sad to see you.

Placing a hand out in front of me to touch your cheek

I whisper softly, “Don’t worry…you’ll find your way again and shine brighter than before.”

You look back at me with doubt and tears in your eyes.

“Don’t be afraid…you always have me,” I whisper as you nod.

You slowly walk away from me…but you can never escape me.

I am you. I am your reflection.

 

What is Love?

3 Feb

Love is more than a feeling. It is a choice. You choose to love someone just like you choose to forgive or not forgive someone. It’s more than words. Love is selfless, always ready to do/help one another.  It is actions. It’s being there for one another no matter what. Love is wanting to take away their pain. It’s being patient even with the day to day mundane tasks. It’s giving that kind word or encouragement. Love is forgiving and not keeping track of wrongs. It’s the simple giving of your whole self to a person and trusting them to be careful with it. Love is two people sharing a heart, hopes, and dreams. Love is choosing to live your life with someone. It’s a sweet surrender. Love is very personal. It’s what you make of it.