So here’s the thing. Everyone in your life is going to let you down in some way at one point or another, more than likely once. Now most of them won’t even do this intentionally. Obviously the people close to you don’t want to hurt you. Let’s just face it though, it’s going to happen.
Most of us have been told this on more than occasion. So you think you’d be use to you when it happens? Or at least expect it from certain people. Even expecting it doesn’t prepare your for the sting when it does happen. Especially when you know it’s not intentional and you really don’t know how or don’t want to tell them how it made you feel.
I’m really really bad about this. I don’t like to hurt people’s feelings, so usually if my feelings are really really hurt, I don’t let that person know. I know they would most likely feel bad for making me feel that way or even worse, not understand why I feel that way and get upset at me for it.
I had a small disappointment today, one that I expected, but it still hurt me and upset me when it happened. The biggest annoyance to me, is that it really was something small. Then I thought about it and it lead to a spiral of me thinking about other people in my life who have let me down and how I’ve always been told that this is just going to happen.
Now I feel bad for feeling this way and I’m too scared to tell anyone that I feel this way…and it’s all the little things lately that are weighing me don’t. I’m not sure why. It’s not like my life sucks or anything. I’m pretty happy right now and have a lot to look forward to…but I feel guilty for feeling the way I do now.
I know this feeling will pass, maybe even within the hour. It will most likely be something small :p since though small things can weigh me down, it’s usually the smallest things that mean the most to me and make me the happiest.
Sorry for spilling my guts to you guys right now. I’m just working through some stuff.
How do you guys get through the small things that aren’t significant and weren’t intentional?
Thanks for listening to me tonight. Hopefully someone can feel a little better reading this and knowing they aren’t alone. It really does get better!
Hopefully I’ll have something more interesting to post next time. :p Hopefully everyone is well.
Good night, good morning, happy birthday, or whatever else it may be when you are reading this.