Change. It’s inevitable. We all go through some type of change at one point or another. This may be school, new home, job, new partner or just a simple change of season (ironically most of my changes are coming up with the autumn season, which just happens to be my favorite!)
Many changes are coming in my life! Part of me is super excited and another part of me is terrified. Changes can be both good and bad. It’s how you deal with the changes that counts. There are a few changes in my life that currently, I’m not sure how I am going to deal with them. Most of them are good changes, but they are big changes. I’m having to let go of some things and people. Some of the people I’m letting go, I’m letting go in a sense that I have to let them grow up and figure things out on their own. Even though I don’t have children of my own yet, I’ve always played a very active role in my younger siblings lives. As the older of my siblings is reaching adulthood this month, I’m just not even sure how to deal with it! I’m very proud of her and yet I’m scared because she is starting off on a new adventure and the next stage in her life. While I just want to control everything she does and keep her as safe as I can…I know that isn’t the best thing I can do for her. I have made myself available for her to contact me in about 5 different ways, so she knows she can always talk to me! Other than that, I just have to give her advice If/When she asks for it…and be there for her if she falls. I know what a wonderful person she is, so I suppose the best thing I can do for her is to truly believe in her and let her know that I do!
As all these changes are happening to me (I’m not going to mention all of them,) and I am also close to entering a new transition in my own life. I find it a bit of a challenge to figure out where I want to go from here. While TRYING not to compare myself to my previous school mates, I do notice that a lot of them are finishing up college, starting jobs, and even starting families. I am not where I thought I would be at this point, and I’ve come to accept it. I’m quite fine with it for the most part. While I did attend school, I’ve had to put everything on hold for a while due to some chronic health issues that have been getting worse. I’m seeing new doctors, trying new things, and right now I have some pretty good hope for the new techniques I’m learning to help manage it. Still, I have to wonder to myself, what can I do right now? What can I contribute to my family and my boyfriend? I can barely take care of myself most days. I suppose I was being too hard on myself and not looking at things from the right perspective. Instead of what can I do…I’m going to start asking myself, What do I WANT to do? While I currently don’t know the answer to this question, I do have some ways I’m going to try to figure it out.
One of the biggest things that happened to me when I started this blog was my “Awakening”. Through my writing, I discovered who I am and what I believe in. It really did help. We are always changing though! Even in small ways, and when we are stuck, our soul yearns for some new development! So I’m excited and hopeful that through writing again, I’m going to rediscover myself and hopefully figure out what I want to do.
What are some of your goals right now? How do you overcome your own changes? Please let me know your thoughts.
Thank you for taking the time to read this!