24 Aug

Change. It’s inevitable. We all go through some type of change at one point or another. This may be school, new home, job, new partner or just a simple change of season (ironically most of my changes are coming up with the autumn season, which just happens to be my favorite!)

Many changes are coming in my life! Part of me is super excited and another part of me is terrified. Changes can be both good and bad. It’s how you deal with the changes that counts. There are a few changes in my life that currently, I’m not sure how I am going to deal with them. Most of them are good changes, but they are big changes. I’m having to let go of some things and people. Some of the people I’m letting go, I’m letting go in a sense that I have to let them grow up and figure things out on their own. Even though I don’t have children of my own yet, I’ve always played a very active role in my younger siblings lives. As the older of my siblings is reaching adulthood this month, I’m just not even sure how to deal with it! I’m very proud of her and yet I’m scared because she is starting off on a new adventure and the next stage in her life. While I just want to control everything she does and keep her as safe as I can…I know that isn’t the best thing I can do for her. I have made myself available for her to contact me in about 5 different ways, so she knows she can always talk to me! Other than that, I just have to give her advice If/When she asks for it…and be there for her if she falls. I know what a wonderful person she is, so I suppose the best thing I can do for her is to truly believe in her and let her know that I do!

As all these changes are happening to me (I’m not going to mention all of them,) and I am also close to entering a new transition in my own life. I find it a bit of a challenge to figure out where I want to go from here. While TRYING not to compare myself to my previous school mates, I do notice that a lot of them are finishing up college, starting jobs, and even starting families. I am not where I thought I would be at this point, and I’ve come to accept it. I’m quite fine with it for the most part. While I did attend school, I’ve had to put everything on hold for a while due to some chronic health issues that have been getting worse. I’m seeing new doctors, trying new things, and right now I have some pretty good hope for the new techniques I’m learning to help manage it. Still, I have to wonder to myself, what can I do right now? What can I contribute to my family and my boyfriend? I can barely take care of myself most days. I suppose I was being too hard on myself and not looking at things from the right perspective. Instead of what can I do…I’m going to start asking myself, What do I WANT to do? While I currently don’t know the answer to this question, I do have some ways I’m going to try to figure it out.

One of the biggest things that happened to me when I started this blog was my “Awakening”. Through my writing, I discovered who I am and what I believe in. It really did help. We are always changing though! Even in small ways, and when we are stuck, our soul yearns for some new development! So I’m excited and hopeful that through writing again, I’m going to rediscover myself and hopefully figure out what I want to do.

What are some of your goals right now? How do you overcome your own changes? Please let me know your thoughts.

Thank you for taking the time to read this!

Love Always,


Being a Domo

18 Aug

Domo is a fairly new and common term. It is short for dog mom. Personally, there is a lot more controversy about this than there should be. I think it’s quite funny.

It’s not like Domo’s are hurting anyone. I’m a Domo myself and I just like to mind my own business. Some people claim that this isn’t real parenting and that we shouldn’t call ourselves this. However, some don’t realize how much a Domo actually does. Some dogs require special care. Some Domo’s take their dogs everywhere.

I’ve had to take steps for my health and my dogs health. Both of us have anxiety and my dog has severe separation anxiety when she isn’t with me. So we are getting everything ready for her to be my ESA (Emotional Support Animal).

Still, she is  like a child to me. I feed her everyday. I brush her and give her coconut oil. She sleeps with us, (and let me tell you, she is a pillow thief!) Some people can never have children and dogs can be like children to people. Some people have children and dogs, but they are all children in their eyes. Dogs are so much a part of families now a days.

It’s not like domo’s are asking for child support or welfare for their dogs. Unless they are actually causing harm to people, then I see no reason why they can’t refer to their dogs as their own children.

Everyone, of course, is entitled to their own opinions. We must RESPECT each other’s opinions and if we don’t agree and their is no harm in the opinion, then mind your own beez-wax! I’m sure a lot of us heard that growing up.

So, whether you see your dog as your child or a pet…just love them…and BE KIND to each other.🙂

The top picture is when I had to be away from my dog for a while and I first picked her up again. She was as happy to see me as I was to see her!

The bottom picture is just her smiling in front of the fan (We have an AC now, thank goodness!)

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18 Aug

I’m sorry for being gone for so long! I really miss this place! Writing is just good for the soul. I don’t know what I’m going to write about, but I want to start writing on here.

It may be random things…I may write about my life, which I’ve been struggling with some illnesses. I may write about something I have an opinion on. I hope to write more poems and stories though. That will come in time.

I plan on re reading some stuff on here and hopefully I will get re inspired by my work.

I hope you are all doing well!


Reminiscing about a character

28 Aug

Hello beautiful readers!

I hope this finds you all well. I really miss being on here but I have nothing to really write about…well that’s not true, I have plenty of ideas, but just a block from anything more than that. I fear that this is almost a journal lately and that’s not what I want this to be. However, if I don’t write anything at all, I get this annoying pressure and nagging in my head. I have a desperate need to write, even if I can’t think of much to write about. I was thinking about maybe looking up some random prompts and going from there. One of the best short stories I’ve ever written ended up coming about from a prompt.🙂 It was my sophomore year in high school and my English teacher wanted us to create and really develop a character to use for our stories. We had to come up with a whole list of things, apart from the character physical attributes we had to come up with quite a history and past for them. She wanted us to know them so well, that we would know how they would act in certain situations. So, after creating our character, she had us pick several short prompts and write how our characters would react in each situation. I recall having to do about 5 of these. I wish I could find them, they were really quite interesting. Anyway, after all that I developed quite an interesting story that I’m still hoping to rewrite and improve.🙂 Turns out, my little sister has this same teacher now in her senior year…and the teacher still remembers me and the story that came from these activities. ^.^ Haha, it surprised me and made me feel really good as this was about 7 years ago! Writing this on here has actually given me some ideas. Maybe I will create a new character and use the prompts…or go back to my old  character and derive something from that.

I hope you all have a wonderful day. Sorry for the rambling. :3

Do any of you have a favorite character that you created? If so, please tell me about them in a comment.😀

2/25/2015 Just some coffee shop thoughts

25 Feb

Hm you know…there really is something that just makes creative juices want to flow when sitting in a coffee shop. At least for me.  Dealing with a writer’s block for a while now, I realize that I haven’t changed the place where I try writing. I don’t know why I didn’t think of it before.

I didn’t even plan to come here today. Civic duty got released early so I decided to unwind a bit at a lovely coffee shop.

I’m really in the mood to write even though I don’t really have any solid ideas at the moment. Maybe I will try writing in different places from now on and see how that goes.

My birthday is  coming up in 2 weeks! It would be an awesome gift to suddenly have inspiration to write a cool story. Hopefully something comes to me! Even if it’s short, I just want to kind of complete something.🙂

I hope everyone is doing well! Best wishes to you all.

As always, if you have something you want me to write about, please comment me or message me to let me know.

May you all have a wonderful week!


Isn’t it funny?

21 Feb

Isn’t it funny how life just goes on? With or without you…People are dying and being born…the weather is changing…(or not in some places on the east coast in America. haha)

In all seriousness. You can just feel stuck…your whole word can be shattered in an instant…you feel frozen in time as your heart bleeds…but the world around you doesn’t stop. It keeps moving.

It kind of seems unfair. In a way it’s even more painful…why doesn’t the world stop with you? Well…maybe it’s just to make your transition back in easier when you’re ready. One day you’ll realize that yea…it never stopped…and you never really did either…maybe in your own way…but now you’re ok enough to move forward with the world again.


One step at a time.

Deep Breath.

You’ll be ok.

The Small Things

12 Feb

So here’s the thing. Everyone in your life is going to let you down in some way at one point or another, more than likely once. Now most of them won’t even do this intentionally. Obviously the people close to you don’t want to hurt you. Let’s just face it though, it’s going to happen.

Most of us have been told this on more than occasion. So you think you’d be use to you when it happens? Or at least expect it from certain people. Even expecting it doesn’t prepare your for the sting when it does happen. Especially when you know it’s not intentional and you really don’t know how or don’t want to tell them how it made you feel.

I’m really really bad about this. I don’t like to hurt people’s feelings, so usually if my feelings are really really hurt, I don’t let that person know. I know they would most likely feel bad for making me feel that way or even worse, not understand why I feel that way and get upset at me for it.

I had a small disappointment today, one that I expected, but it still hurt me and upset me when it happened. The biggest annoyance to me, is that it really was something small. Then I thought about it and it lead to a spiral of me thinking about other people in my life who have let me down and how I’ve always been told that this is just going to happen.

Now I feel bad for feeling this way and I’m too scared to tell anyone that I feel this way…and it’s all the little things lately that are weighing me don’t. I’m not sure why. It’s not like my life sucks or anything. I’m pretty happy right now and have a lot to look forward to…but I feel guilty for feeling the way I do now.

I know this feeling will pass, maybe even within the hour. It will most likely be something small :p since though small things can weigh me down, it’s usually the smallest things that mean the most to me and make me the happiest.

Sorry for spilling my guts to you guys right now. I’m just working through some stuff.

How do you guys get through the small things that aren’t significant and weren’t intentional?

Thanks for listening to me tonight. Hopefully someone can feel a little better reading this and knowing they aren’t alone. It really does get better!

Hopefully I’ll have something more interesting to post next time. :p Hopefully everyone is well.

Good night, good morning, happy birthday, or whatever else it may be when you are reading this.

Love Always,